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Guidance and support!
Hello
My name is Rania and I am excited to be part of this community. I am 37 years old and I am hoping to get guidance and support with my current struggles. Below is a brief summary of where I am right now and a little background. I would like to apologize for the long question. There might be information missing or repeated, kindly excuse me and feel free to ask for any missing information.
I have a long history of taking antidepressants for over 17 years following the death of my father. I have a long history of anxiety, panic, and fear, all of that got worse over time, and I have been tapering and withdrawing for more than 10 years. I am stuck in PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome), one of the many labels thrown my way. The withdrawals have left my nervous system extremely sensitive and dysregulated, stuck in a constant fight-or-flight state. I experience panic, anxiety, and physical tension almost constantly, I also have chronic vertigo. Over the last few months, as I started tapering further, my overall health has worsened due to the chronic state of prolonged stress caused by the withdrawals.
I have been on Cipralex, Nurona, Effexor, Xanax, Valium, Indicardin, and Duloxetine. Thankfully, through homeopathy and a lot of mental support, I was able to withdraw from all of them except my current final one, Duloxetine, which I am still tapering off and have been working on for around two years.
For as long as I remember, I have had gut issues that have fluctuated in intensity over the years. Mainly bloating and food intolerances, along with sensitivity to smells and stimuli, worsened over time, understandably from the stress of withdrawals. My capacity to handle stress has decreased over the years, and my current emotional state is in constant high alert.
Over the last few months, after a further drop in my Duloxetine dosage to 3 beads, roughly equivalent to 0.3 mg, I experienced a significant decline in my health. I have had chronic diarrhea, IBS-D, SIBO, nausea, abdominal pain, got abdominal virus, drastic weight loss (around 15 kgs), and extreme muscle aches and cramps (most of these symptoms come from the withdrawals themselves). I tested for H pylori that turned out to be negative. I must note that I stopped eating at all as well due to everything causing a reaction. Even small amounts of supplements, foods, or homeopathic remedies often trigger reactions. However, even before this final blow, I would often react to supplements as well, and I would go hunting for the safest, most gentle forms. I have almost always had deficiencies in the same nutrients: vitamin D, B12, and iron. Even through food, my body was not always absorbing them properly, again due to being in a constant state of stress from withdrawals.
After lots of desperation and searching, I went to a gastroenterologist and did a set of tests, which according to standard measures looked “normal.” I was diagnosed with IBS-D and SIBO and took an antibiotic called Xifaxan after more than ten years without antibiotics. It briefly calmed my gut but then worsened my symptoms, so I stopped. The doctor had recommended four boxes, but I stopped at two.
I have been taking slippery elm for around two weeks now, which has made a massive difference. It helped reduce my chronic diarrhea and allowed me to start taking food again slowly, alongside my nervous system work. I have also cut gluten, dairy, and sugar completely.
My labs show low vitamin D, iron, B12, and magnesium. My homocysteine is 12, indicating methylation issues. I also have signs of histamine sensitivity. I have tried iron tablets, magnesium glycinate used to work but lately started irritating me so I stopped it, vitamin D in liquid form is tolerable but currently at 5k hurt my muscles, and B12 injections took the methyl form and it sent me into a week of palpitations and intense anxiety.. My body reacts strongly to almost every supplement, food, and remedy but slowly finding a difference since slippery elm and slow nervous system work, but still unable to safely supplement without worrying about getting a reaction.
Emotionally, I feel completely drained, hopeless, and physically unsafe in my own body most of the time. My nervous system is extremely reactive, and I struggle to tolerate normal stimuli. Sleep is minimal, my energy is almost zero, and I am homebound.
I am currently undergoing another round of SSP and doing nervous system work and still doing homeopathy. Right now, I am looking for guidance on safe ways to support my body nutritionally, as I know that my body needs that support, and I am also working on my nutrition through food slowly to get better.
I would like advice on what vitamins and supplements or strategies to safely start supplementing without overwhelming my system or the method to safely take them, and I could use guidance on whether my current approach makes sense.
For now, I am considering a sublingual form of hydroxyl B12, since the methyl form has been too reactive for me, and I understand how much low B12 impacts my nervous system. I also have a liquid Vitamin D3 and K2, but taking 5,000 IU (last week) caused muscle aches. I have Floradix iron tablets for now. I took the liquid before and it was okay, but due to the intensity of my anxiety, I developed a fear of taking anything, so I paused that for a long time. Sometimes when I take supplements, they do not show effects at first but eventually start showing symptoms. I started with one iron tablet yesterday and experienced some reaction, but not as severe as expected. I am also considering a methyl-free multivitamin alongside these, while continuing slippery elm and nervous system work. I am unsure of the best way to supplement, how to slowly and safely open my pathways for proper detox, digestion, absorption, and overall health, while my body is still fragile from ongoing withdrawals.
I am looking for practical, safe ways to start supporting my nervous system and body, including guidance on gentle foods, supplements, and small steps I can safely take to restore some energy and calm while continuing my withdrawal recovery. I am exhausted, any small activity hurts me, and I am constantly fatigued and unwell. What is the gentlest way to start supplementing B12, D, iron, and magnesium safely given my sensitivities? Are there any specific forms or dosing strategies for methylation support?
I am grateful to be part of this community and for any guidance, insights, or strategies you can share. I hope to learn and take steps toward supporting my nervous system, gut, and overall health safely.
Thank you so much
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